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I feel a bit better today over how I felt yesterday, but my weight has gone up fairly significantly. Or perhaps it's down from what my actual weight was yesterday. I don't know. I didn't weight myself yesterday. So I'm working with the weight from the day before last, and I was at my lowest at that point. I hold out hope that my weight will drop from here now that I'm back to fasting again. I'm not a new 120-hour fast. It's still a net loss for the month, so I'm winning. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  339.2  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs The meal I shared with my husband was low-carb meatballs with marinara and mozzarella. To go with it, I made a fairly simply salad with a keto-friendly Italian dressing that I made and a dusting of Parmesan cheese. We also found some keto-friendly cheese crisps to use as croutons, too. The meal was very good. I used a half-a-pound of ground beef to make 10 meat balls. ...

I forgot to weigh myself today. I was feeling really, really miserable. I had a huge fight with the porcelain fairy today. I won, but I'm much worse for wear. I feel a bit weakened and ill. I need some time to reset and recover. I did the laundry yesterday, and my husband was kind enough to do the grocery shopping for me, so at least that part is already done and out of the way. Now all I have to do it prepare food for the week. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight: 337.4 lbs   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I was a bit hungrier last night than I have been for a while. I'm not sure why that is. I'm sure it contributed to the rift between the porcelain fairy and me, though. My nighttime meal was pork rinds and cream cheese. It was really tasty. I was thinking that I should have had some greens with that. I might need a bit more fiber in my diet. The only trouble is that fiber is carbohydrates. Granted, they are the kind that don't really...

My weight has dropped by 1.2 lbs, but I have been feeling terrible. After eating I feel better for a while, but then I feel terrible again. By terrible I mean that I have that gross feeling still, and I have been feeling a bit weak. I'm also feeling really, really cold today. It's been a while since I have felt this cold. The bacon-wrapped chicken thigh and salad were delicious, though. I enjoyed every bite! Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  337.4  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I'm wondering again if I am dehydrated, but I'm not experiencing any other symptoms of dehydration. I'm thinking this is caused by a combination of stress and a need to visit the porcelain fairy. I have tried to trek to her cave, but she sends me away as I have no gifts. My husband brought our bowling paraphernalia out of hiding and offered to take me. Wouldn't you know it? I am the one that didn't feel up to it this time. Ugh! I was goi...

I don't want to work today, but I have to. My weight is up by 0.6 lbs from yesterday. That's okay. It's odd, though, because it's my last day of a 5-day fast, and I would think I'd lose more weight. I chalk it up to stress at work. It has been really hectic. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  338.6  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs It could also be that I need to visit the porcelain fairy. I haven't in a while. This could explain my general "gross" feeling. I may be a bit backed up. What I'm hoping is that I can get rid of the backup and drop a good amount by doing so. That happens quite often. We'll see. After this shift is over, I go home for my weekend. I will get to eat something. I am planning to make bacon-wrapped chicken thighs. They are tasty, but I'm really not feeling in the mood for food. I just don't want to eat. What should I do? The plan is to make myself just one thigh. I'...

I feel pretty "icky." It feels like heartburn or reflux. I get a feeling in the area of my stomach and esophagus that can be best described as "gross." I can't think of any better descriptor. On a light note, quite literally, the scale was very, very nice to me today. 338 lbs! Woo! Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  338  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I will be eating in a couple of days. I don't want to for a couple of reasons: (a) I don't want to gain any weight, and (b) I just don't feel hungry at all. I should eat, though, right? It's too soon to think about this. It's a couple of days away. My husband wondered why I feel the need to eat even if I'm not hungry, but I think I need to because I want to limit my fasting to seven days or fewer so that I don't really need to be under a doctors careful eye most of the time. From my highest weight of 425, I have officially lost 87 lbs as of ...

Woohoo! I am under 340 lbs today! I am at 339.6 lbs! Sure, it's just barely under, but under is under! This is a victory! I feel victorious! This makes me feel great, and I love seeing myself make progress. It's super exciting, and it's motivating. I'm losing slowing, just 3 lbs in total so far this month, but it's a net loss and not a gain. I'm good with that. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  339.6  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs My husband and I stopped at the Walmart yesterday because I had a whim to buy a sports bra that I saw the other day. He convinced me to get smaller sizes than what I would normally choose. The dressing rooms were not open at that time of morning. so I had to buy them on faith and try them on at home. They fit! They didn't all fit. I deliberately got one that was a bit smaller than the others. I have been wearing a bra size 44 DDD for some time, and the smallest sports bra I got wa...

I have finally seen 340 lbs on the scale. The scale showed me 340.6 lbs today. I'm above 340 lbs, but it's close enough. I'll take it!  I'm so close to seeing my number drop into the 330s, and that would be amazing. I'm also very close to getting to my next goal of 325 lbs, I can almost reach out and touch it! Then it's picture time! I haven't taken any pictures because I want to be surprised by any changes that may be evident when I get to 325 lbs. I can't wait. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  340.6  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I am at work with my husband, and he always make me feel so loved. When I stress out about things, he is there to rub my shoulders a bit as he walks by or just reach out to touch me to let me know he is thinking of me and there to support me. This is the most wonderful man, and I can't believe how lucky I was to meet him and get to spend my life with him. To hear me tell it, ...