Empyrean Engine

I have only myself to blame! A bit dramatic, but I have taken a step back, and I do not like it! I have an up-blip to 383.4 lbs today. I did it to myself, and I knew I was doing it. I did it anyway. It's not a bad one, and I hope I don't have to suffer a plateau or a graph wobble like I did at the beginning of this month. I blew my target of losing ~18 lbs by the end of the month, and I'm scared to see how blown it is. Only time will tell. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  383.4  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs There are a few things that contributed to this up-blip. My husband is super sweet and really supportive. He has to remind me daily to stop obsessing about my caloric intake. But the problem is that I can't. When I take in too many calories, I either don't lose as much weight as I'd hoped, or I suffer an up-blip like I have today. He brought home a Starbucks's Pumpkin Spice Latte (in a bottle) after ...

This time, I didn't lose a full pound as I had hoped, but I'm down almost a pound, and that's good enough. The scale gave me 382.6 lbs today. It's still the weekend, and I have not had to fend off the Pizza Monster. That's fantastic! Any day I don't have to face off against that beast is a good day. I may have made a mistake in binge-watching My 600-lb Life. And how ironic is it that I am okay to binge on a TV show, but not food? It's probably not any healthier to binge-watch a TV show than it would be to binge on food, but it won't make me fat like a food-binge will. And here's what today's numbers look like: Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   382.6  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Isn't that pretty? Yeah. It is. So far since Day 31 of this month, I have dropped a total of 11.2 lbs, and I have 33.9 lbs to go to reach 359.9 lbs on the scale. I may be able to get there in the next 30-day period ...

I am not at all unhappy about this, but my graph was going down in a very conspicuously straight line, and now it's not. If I didn't see these numbers on the scale myself, I'd have to question the veracity of my reporting. I am at 383.4 lbs today. That's 1.6 lbs down from yesterday! It's almost two pounds down in one day's time! The trajectory of my graph has been compromised, and that's fantastic; I am fine with that broken straight line. It's beautiful. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   383.4  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I've been watcing a show called "My 600-lb Life" of late. This show is about people who weigh in the vicinity of 600 lbs. The range of weights have been from the high 500s to over 700  lbs. Each episode follows a person's journey who is undergoing gastric bypass. It's a difficult road for them, and, at time, I have found myself screaming at the screen wondering ho...

With the way my graph is looking, I am hearing the Price Is Right yodeler from the Cliffhanger game in my head. Only, he climbs the mountain, and my graph is going down, down, down. I'm at 385 lbs today! I'm loving the trajectory of my graph. You can see it below. I want to keep up this pace, but going even faster would be so much better. You know how I am; I want to be skinny three weeks ago! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   385  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Ah, if only time travel were a real thing that exists and could exists, but it isn't, and it can't! Not a thing. Never will be. I have really great reasons, and those reasons are all because of paradox. As I'm sure my fan-base may not be as interested in math and science as I am (*cough, nerd, cough*), I will spare the explanations. Tonight is my Friday at work, and then I have to battle the pizza monster. I'm ready for that fight. Last time I ga...

I had a brisket, egg, and cheese taco this morning. It was amazing. I got two at my husband's behest, but I could only eat one. He ate the other in addition to the very large burrito he had ordered. It looked good, but I was completely satisfied with the one taco I had; I didn't covet his burrito in the slightest. This was at around 5:30 AM yesterday, and I didn't eat anything else besides my dose of oil until just a few minutes ago at 1:00 AM today. My scale gave me splendid news today: 385.6 lbs! This is very exciting. I can't remember the last time I saw such a low number. I know it's not low by anyone else's standards, but this is super low by mine considering I've been 400+ lbs for so much of my life. I mean, consider this: The last time I was weighed and under 400 lbs, I was 389 lbs, and I was 13 years old then. I'm 39 years old now, and 13 is one-third of 39. That means that I have been over 400 lbs for about  two-thirds of my life! I have exp...

So far this month (I'm doing 30-day "months," so this is not based on the actual calendar months), I have lost a total of 7.2 lbs. That means I'm losing about a half-a-pound a day. This is not ideal. I was hoping to lose a pound per day. Right now I am at 386.6 lbs. This is good. I'm down from yesterday, but I'm only down by 0.6 lbs. Reducing by only a half-a-pound a day will get me to my goal twice as slow! Ugh. I should be happy I'm losing, and I shouldn't be upset that it's not fast enough. By anyone's standards, I'm losing too quickly. The average is, like, 10 lbs per month, and I'm on par to lose about 15 lbs in this 30-day period. It's more than expected or average, but it's half of what I wanted. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   386.6  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs In my last 30-day period, I started by graph out at 415 lbs, but I wasn't sure of that number as I didn...

Success! My scale gave me three consecutive readings of 387.2 lbs today. I am going to consider my plateau busted. I was a bit premature with calling it busted before, but I think it definitely is now. I did a Google search for the word plateau, and many of the results gave me information pertaining to diets. I wonder how often that word is used in an appropriate context discussing an area of relatively level high ground. That's food for thought right there. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   387.2  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Those numbers look pretty good, but they can and will get better! Those are rookie numbers! Thanks for the advice, Matthew McConaughey, but I'd rather not pump my numbers up. Let them deflate. I like deflated numbers. Deflate my numbers, deflate me, make all the things smaller, please. Smaller is better.  I still can't believe that a diet is actually working for ...