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And today I am even higher than I was yesterday. I'm at 378.8 lbs. This is very sad news, but not completely unexpected. I'm back at work tonight. I'm not eating lunch, and I plan to get myself back on track from that horrendous weekend experience. We had lunch with a friend on Friday, and it was good. it was barbecue. I love barbecue. And I was good about it, too. I ordered .25 lbs of brisket and ate less than half of it. I got a small side of green beans and ate less than half of those. We ordered a plate of sweet potato fries for the table, and I ate three (they were really long fries). And I didn't have dessert. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  378.8  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Now, I did have to drink a bunch of coffee with a lot of cream and sugar to get myself out of bed and to stay awake during lunch, and I'm sure that wasn't a good choice. Why is all the coffee so strong these days? I can't d...

I again find myself at 378 lbs today. I saw 377 lbs once. I know what's possible. My weekend was hectic, and my whole schedule has been thrown off. I don't expect to see good numbers today or tomorrow. I've also been a bit remiss in my daily blogging duties. I need to get back on track. I have decided to go back to the oil doses just before and just after work. I get really confused otherwise. My husband can do his when he wants, but he's just going to have to understand how I need to have my routine. I'm sure he'll be fine. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  378  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Thursday morning was a terrible morning for me, and I think it contributed to my wonky weekend. On Wednesday nights/Thursday mornings, I carpool with a co-worker. He picks me up in his truck. At the end of my shift on Thursday morning, I stayed about an hour past my shift wrapping up. This is a bit unusual, and my co-w...

Yay! Weight loss! I'm down to 377.4 lbs today, and that's the lowest weight I've seen thus far. That means that I am down 37.6 lbs in total since I started, and I only have 232. 4 lbs to go to reach my long-tern goal. That's awesome. I hope I can keep up this down-trend. I'm not sure exactly what I did to trigger the down-blip. I'm not recording the food diary. Maybe that will make the difference from here on out. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  377.4  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I had chicken wings last night. They were good. i eat plain chicken wings from Domino's Pizza, and each one is about 445 or so calories. I'm not allowed to obsess about calories anymore, though, so that number isn't important. You can just ignore that. It's the weekend, and I was able to weight myself many times. It seems that the time frame to gt my lowest weight is around midnight now. It was around 3: 00 PM before I c...

Disappointment. I'm back up to 378.8 lbs today. Why? I'm working so hard! Do I need to go back to starving myself? Maybe the effect of starving myself takes a few days to kick in, and not eating for a single day doesn't reflect in my weight for the next day,  but a couple of days later. If that's what's been happening, then upping the calories to nearly 1,200 a day caused me to plateau at, like, 378 lbs. I seem to be bouncing around the 378-lb mark and not budging. And that started a day or two after I started eating 1.200 calories a day. The drops in my weight began to happen a couple of days after I starved myself on under 1,000 calories for a few days. This is why I'm not s scientist by trade. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  378.8  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs My husband thinks I need to stop counting calories and simply go with whatever happens. Eat what I want when I want (when I'm hungry, ...

Plateaus are mean. I know that they are an inevitable part of any diet, but that doesn't make them any less mean. I'm at my lowest-ever weight since beginning this diet... again. That's good. I didn't go up again. I had a bump over the past few days, but maybe I am headed down again. maybe I will see a lower number on the scale tomorrow on Day 60. I'm on target now to see 377.7 lbs on the scale on Day 60, but that's a far cry from the 375-lb expectation I had just a few days ago. I am sad. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  378.2  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs But still, weight loss is not weight gain, and weight gain is bad; therefore, weight loss is good. It is better than weight gain. Here is how that looks like in "math" or logical terms: Weight Gain = Bad Weight Loss > Weight Gain Weight Loss > Bad Good > Bad ∴ Weight Loss = Good I had no reason to do that, but it was fun. Yay logic...

I am at the same weight today as I was yesterday. That's neither up nor down, so I'll take his plateau as a victory for now. I take 'em where I can get 'em. I'm at 378.8 lbs. My husband is down a bit today from yesterday though. He was "235 lbs and change" yesterday, and today I saw him circling the scale, so I was able to sneak up behind him and catch the number. It was 234.6 lbs. Yay! It's working for him! Starting weight: 415 lbs Current weight: 378.8 lbs   Long-term Goal: 145 lbs Short-term Goal: 359 lbs It's 4:20 AM, and I'm getting ready to go home. There is some delicious Beef Stroganoff waiting for me. My husband may eat the rest of the Paella today. I don't know. The Stroganoff turned out to be pretty tasty even with wine in it. It's the same wine I used for the Paella, so I don't think the wine was the issue. I think it was the method of cooking, to be quite honest. Pressure Cooker Beef Stroganoff 1 1/2 pounds l...

I wrote a whole blog post for today, and it was great. Then I just accidentally reverted it to draft and saved a blank page over it. So that's about the gist of my mental state right now after cooking the  Beef Stroganoff for me and my husband. The pressure cooker was supposed to make cooking effortless. It was a lot of work, and it took me a couple of hours just to do the prep. Now it's cooking, and it's 7:00 AM. We haven't eaten yet, we haven't taken our oil yet. This is a disaster. This is a couple if hours that could have been used as flavor-free time after taking oil, but my husband decided he wanted to take oil after brinner instead of before brinner, and now I'm really stressed out. I don't know if I can finish the cooking and feed us with an hour to spare before we have to sleep so that we can take our doses of oil. To top it off, my weight went up. I hate up-blips. They are annoying. I am at 378.8 lbs today. The post I wrote before was much mo...