Empyrean Engine

I am up by just under a pound from yesterday. This is a plateau. I wish I could say that I enjoy plateaus. I can't. I don't. This is not defeat, though. I have learned that plateaus are very temporary, and I am fully confident that I will eventually move past it. I was wondering, though, if I am somehow subconsciously sabotaging things. I set these short-term goals for myself -- 404.8 lbs was an undocumented first goal, and then 399 lbs, and now 398 lbs -- and at each one, there's a plateau just before I hit it. I wonder if I'm doing this to myself on some subconscious level. I'd like to get more data before I make the determination on this. It was pretty smooth sailing going down, down, down until I was at 390 lbs, and then progress plateau'd. Now the odd thing is that these short-term goals I set are not at any one specific interval; they vary. This is the reason I think it has to be something I'm doing subconsciously. Only time will tell. Starting w...

The stupid, mean, ugly pizza monster didn't get me last night. I'm safe! I didn't lose much weight, though. I was at 390.8 lbs yesterday, and today I am at 390.6 lbs. At least it's not a gain. That's the good news. I still feel like I overate a bit. I typically skip my "lunch" meal during the week. On weekends, I get confused about mealtimes because I don't maintain my regular sleep cycle. I had a half of a burrito (I made amazing burritos), and then several hours later at the usual brinner meal time, I had a half of a chicken salad sandwich. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   390.6  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  389 lbs It's not too big hurdle. It's not a hurdle at all. In fact, I'm down by 0.2 lbs. It's not ideal, but it's also not unexpected. My goal of 389 lbs will simply need to wait another day. Plateau graph:

It's the weekend for me. I have succeeded in thwarting the nefarious pizza monster, but tonight is yet another game night, and I need to stand my guard. Maybe tomorrow I will meet the new short-term goal of 389 lbs. Wow! To be in the range of 380 lbs after spending so many years above 400 lbs is so surreal. And while I'm a long way from svelte, I am looking so good in comparison to when I started this diet. There is a very clear difference in the shape of my body, and I have so much energy! I love it. It can only get better. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   390.8  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  389 lbs Those numbers amazing. Once I hit 398 lbs, I plan to set the next short-term goal at -30 lbs, 358 lbs. That goal is astounding to me, but it seems totally achievable! I can do it. When I hit it, I will have lost over 50 lbs in total. I want to see that happen, and I am fully confident that I can meet the challeng...

It would appear that I have lost two pounds since yesterday. I think it may be some water weight in addition to a visit to the porcelain fairy that contributed to me losing double what I had expected. I'm fine with that; trust me! This is a good thing, and I don't mind repeating this -- daily -- for the next, say, 125 days. Heh. If I lost 2 lbs a day over 125 days, that would be 150 lbs gone. It's impossible, but a girl can dream! I expect a bounce back or plateau day, but I'm okay with that. I want to try to average a pound a day for as long as I can. As I slim down, though, losing a pound will get harder and harder. I'm fully prepared to accept that. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   391.8  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  389 lbs That short-term goal is just around the corner. It's been over a month, and I'm still so astonished that this is working at all, let alone that it's working so amazingly well. I don'...

Where does the fat go when you lose weight? I posed this question to my hubby. I was met with this pithy, monosyllabic response: Away. That helps. It helps in the not-helping kind of way. So I had to find out because I've lost 21.3 lbs so far, and all of that, I'm sure, is fat. Where did it disappear to? I see that it's gone, but I can't fathom to where. This was bothering me a bit. I thought, "maybe if I know where it goes, I can help it get there faster. It couldn't hurt." So I researched it. I love researching things. I love learning things. I love knowing things. Now I know. C 55 H 104 O 6 +78O 2  —> 55CO 2 +52H 2 O+energy It's chemistry! Fat in => Carbon Dioxide, water, and energy out. This I can understand. This makes sense to me. Now I know. I feel better. I mean, I already feel amazing having lost over 20 lbs, but I feel even better now! Is that possible? I think I just found out that it is! Starting weight:  415 lbs Curr...

Down, down, down. I like it! I'm so excited! I'm barely eating, and I'm fine with that. I'm not feeling the least bit deprived. And when I do eat past the point of satisfied, I feel immense guilt. The only problem I have with this is that the point of satisfaction is, like, two bites into a really delicious meal. The hilarious thing, though, is that since I am eating so little now, our house is overrun with food! We can't get rid of it all! Last night, for example, I made our brinner and served a plate for me and a plate for my hubby. He ate all of his, but I left about half of mine as per my usual habit. I put Saran wrap over the plate, and he went to put it in the refrigerator. He started laughing as soon as he opened the door. He said to me, "this is getting ridiculous," and I knew exactly what he was referring to. There were plates similar to that one in the refrigerator already. I haven't had a chance to eat the leftovers! I need to stop mak...

My set-point must have just lowered while I was showering. Yesterday I'm sure it was above above 396 lbs. And I know it was below 398 lbs. I just woke up from my regular 8-hour sleep at around 6:20 PM. My alarm usually goes off at 6:30 PM. I felt hungry when I woke up, but I didn't yesterday. Today's hunger was light and manageable, and I thought to myself that if my weight drops even lower before my set-point does, I will feel hungrier. I've learned that taking a small bite of something fixes this hunger, so I was considering trying that. The only trouble is that I need a one-hour flavor-free window before taking my oil, and there was less than an hour before I had to leave for work. That's fine because the oil dose would also quell the hunger monster. Then I hopped in the shower. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   395.4  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  389 lbs My weight is down from yesterday which is fa...