Empyrean Engine

The past couple of times I saw ~405 lbs on the scale, I immediately jumped back up to ~410 lbs the very next day. That didn't happen this time. It's a small up-blip, and I was hoping it would go down, but it is not dramatic. This SLD method is definitely working! The scale today said 405.4 lbs at least three times in a row. And you know what that means; it means I'm taking it as accurate! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  405.4 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs Up-blip or not, this is a victory! I'm at work right now. I have already eaten my sandwich, and I shared some of it with a coworker. I haven't eaten anything else, and I'm not feeling hungry right now at all! I am really loving how this SLD method works. I think my set-point has dropped lower than my weight. If so, then I'm going to ride this lowered set-point as far as I can! I don't welcome hunger at all, and I hope it stays away for a while. ...

Yay! 405 lbs today! The scale showed 405 lbs three times in a row, and that is good enough to believe its accuracy. I'm back on track, and hopefully I can continue the downward trend to meet my first short-term goal of 399 lbs. To be under 400 lbs would be miraculous. I can remember the last time I saw my weight under 400 lbs. I was weighed when I was 13, and I was at around 385 lbs then. That's when my parents had me on Weight Watchers and using Slim- Fast and going to the gym regularly. All of that was a futile effort, though. I simply continued to gain and gain and gain. They were so disappointed in me. Well, my mother was; my father loved me regardless. My father's love has always been unconditional. I can't say the same of my mother's. Maybe it was. Maybe she did love me regardless but just wanted me to be thinner and look prettier. I don't know. I'll never really know. Both of my parents are gone now. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  405...

The scale is my friend again. We had a bit of a falling out, but we're past it. The scale said some things. I sad some things. We both have regrets. Communication is key! Today my scale communicated 407.2 lbs. What a kind thing to say! Thanks, buddy. You'e my favorite friend. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  407.2 lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs This is a return to what I was back on Day 9, and then on Days 10 and 11, I dropped dramatically to 406.6 lbs and then to 405 lbs respectively. I'm hoping with all my heart and all my fat that the dramatic drop happens again, and that I stay down and then sink further (to 404.8 lbs and lower? Unseen territory!). NO PIZZA! I was reading  Seth Roberts' SLD forum  for encouragement more than anything, and I discovered a couple of things that have reassured me. Plateaus are not failure, and if you're not losing pounds, you may be losing inches. These two points a...

Success! 408 lbs four times in a row on the scale. I'm accepting it! I'm rejoicing. My weight is down and not up today! Take that, fat! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  408 lbs  ⇩   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs It seems the plan to just eat when I feel hungry and stick with the oil is going to work and continue to work, so I will just stop messing with things and go with the original plan I had for the rest of these 30 days. The graph will tell me all I need to know. When I woke up for work at around 6:15 PM, I felt good. I felt light -- that's the best word I can use to describe it. I wasn't bloated or heavy or uncomfortable. Perhaps the up-blips from previous days were due to water retention or somesuch nonsense. Today is my Friday at work. I will start my weekend at the end of this shift -- on Thursday morning. Thursday night is game night at home, and last weekend we invited a friend to play games and eat piz...

My weight is still creeping higher and higher. It's not so much a plateau at this point as it is a slight upward grade. Trucks would still be safe to drive it, I'm sure. Well, the graph below will show what I mean. I am loathe to look at it let alone post it, but I've committed to this blog, and I'm going to do it. I'm still questioning the accuracy of my scale, however. I have now started taking at least 5 readings in a row, and marking the one that comes up the most times. 408.6 lbs was the winner coming up three times out of 5 tries. It's another up-blip. Current stats: Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  408.6 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs This cat is my spirit animal. Yes. You look fat. But it's not the shirt. It's the fat that makes you look fat. I need to pet that cat and let it know that everything will be okay. We can both be fat and miserable together. I'm still not giving up, though. I'm...

I have decided to top experimenting with fasting. The scale hasn't moved very much at all in the past couple of days, and that's disheartening; however, others have experienced plateaus like this one just before a huge drop. I'm still hopeful, but I'm going back to the initial stick-with-the-plan basics. I'm going back to eating when hungry and taking 4 total tbsp of ELOO a day. Today's stats: Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  408.2 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs I'm only up from yesterday by 0.2 lbs. It's not a huge up-blip. This is more of a plateau than anything. I feel like maybe my scale will move in the proper direction soon so my graph can be happier than it is right now. Sad graph is sad graph: I was doing so well before I decided to have pizza. No more pizza! Well, if I do have pizza, then I will have to use will-power because it will raise my set-point and thus call the hunger monster....

Today is not a good day. My scale is super inaccurate and inconsistent. I decided to take several measures to get a round-about figure I can semi-quasi-trust. Who am I kidding? I don't trust it. It's a lying liar that lies!! It was doing weird things like measuring me at 408, then 408.8, then 408, then 409.9, then 408 again. Ugh! Since it told me 408 several times, and the other numbers only once, I chose to believe 408. Another up-blip, but I'll take it. It's a small one. Also, it's still down from where I was two days ago, and that's progress. Anyhow, this is where I am: Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  408 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs It's up from yesterday's 407.6 lbs, but only by 0.4 which is practically nothing. I can probably attribute that to clothing or odd gravitational fluctuations. Yeah. I attribute this to science-y sounding things beyond my control. The unpleasant attitude, though, is b...