Empyrean Engine

Wow! I am 2.4 lbs lighter today than I was yesterday. And I know that this is from the bout I had with the porcelain fairy. I'm dreading bounce-back. I hope I don't go up to 350 lbs. I feel like I ate a lot. I probably did. I had a really large salad with some cheese, olives, fish, and delicious ginger dressing. It was so amazing. I wouldn't change a thing. The fact that I didn't gain weight, though --  lost more than 2 lbs, actually -- that simply amazes me. Have I played a trick on my body. Am I lulling it into a false sense of security? We shall see. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  346  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs When watching shows like My 600 Pound Life   and Fat Doctor   wherein people get bariatric surgery to lose weight, I see how difficult it is on parents -- especially mothers -- to see and deal with their children gaining weight. I can only imagine how my own mother felt. The only...

Today is July 4th! Yay! I's bitter-sweet, though, because it's raining out, so I will not be able to enjoy any fireworks tonight. That's too bad. Today is my day off, so it's eating day. I ate today, and I have to admit that there was some fea that I would gain weight from it. Something unexpected happened, though. I had a rough bout the with porcelain fairy. I must have eaten too much too quickly when I broke my fast. Live and learn! Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  348.4  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I didn't lose much today, but it is still a loss, and that is a victory. I'm quite happy with any amount of weight loss, so this is making me really happy. The fact that I haven't gained weight after eating is the best reward. I'll take it! I'm sure that the reason I didn't gain weight has something to do with the nasty fight I had with the porcelain fairy, but that's all right. I am expecting...

Today is the best day ever! I dropped another 1.8 lbs, and I am at 348.8 lbs today! I'm confident I can hold this weight and drop even more, too. I have to admit that I had my doubts a few weeks back when my weigth shot through the roof more than 10 lbs in 2 days, but I'm definitely back on track and heading in the right direction. I'm super excited about that. And while it's hard to tell for sure, I think my tummy is shrinking and my mother's apron is not hanging down so low anymore. I could be seeing things. This could be wishful thinking. I don't know. I will have to wait until I can take a new progress picture at 325 lbs to see what differences and changes there have been. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  348.8  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs Tomorrow is the start of my weekend, and it should be an eating day. Right now I'm feeling pretty good without food. I'm not hungry and my energy is good. I don't...

Today is a good day! I am back down from yesterday's huge gain of 2 lbs, and I weight even less today than the day before yesterday! Yay! I find it interesting to see how my weight changes from day to day and based on what I'm eating or not eating. When I get to my goal weight of 145 lbs, I can be confident that if I eat wrong for a day or so, I can get myself right back on track to take off any weight I may put on from it. That's comforting. I know how to lose weight now. This is a wonderful feeling to have. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  350.4  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs Something that I haven't really discussed in a while is my stress levels. I measure my stress everyday using the Samsung Health app on my phone. I measure it just after I do my blood glucose and take my weight measurement. The stress test gives me my pulse rate and oxygen saturation. With oxygen, I stay within the range of 97% to 100%. ...

My weight is up tow pounds today. It's not the end of the world. I know I can drop it again. It's still 1.2 lbs lower than two days ago, so I'm fine with it. It was a sharp up-turn, and I'm hoping to see a sharp down-turn tomorrow or the day after. It's my hope, but if it doesn't happen, I won't be as sad as I was when I gained 10 lbs over two days. That was tragic! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  353  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I know what possibly cause the gain. I did a couple of things that could have done it. I was preparing food for my husband, and I did break my fast and eat a few things. I made the ham and cream cheese roll-ups, and I ate one of them. I also made a total of 72 mini quiche, and I ate six of those. I also ate a pickle. In addition to the food that I ate, I also only slept about a total of four hours. That's because of all the time it takes for food prep and cooking. The mini qu...

I am so happy today! I dropped a huge amount of weight! I expected a pound or so. But I dropped down to 351 lbs today! Yesterday, I was at 354.2 lbs! That is 3.2 lbs! That is a "whoosh" if ever I saw one! I am only 2 lbs away from getting back down to 349 lbs. I can't believe it! I can't wait to get home and see if the weight loss sticks this time. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  351  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs The net loss for this "month" is only 0.2 lbs, but it's a loss! It's not a gain! For the mere fact that it is a loss and not a gain, I am overjoyed. Again, I am over the moon just like that infamous cow! I really can't wait to get down to a normal weight, but I'll accept being under 300 lbs. That will be nice. I can't wait to see myself at 299 lbs and below. I wonder how different I will look. I got on the scale and saw 351 lbs, and I was thrilled, but I don't feel as though I...

Woo! Down, down, down goes the weight. This is a thing that is currently happening in my life. And this is after I basically pigged-out for the past two days. I probably didn't pig-out, but I really feel like I ate a lot. The point, though, is that I lost 1.4 lbs. That's quite a bit. I'm over the moon! I guess I am a bit like the cow in the nursery rhyme. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  354.2  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I made myself the most delicious omelet. I sauteed some onions in butter, and then I added black olives and broccoli into that. I whisked four eggs and poured that over the olives, broccoli and onions. Then when the eggs cooked through, I spread out four Havarti cheese slices over the whole thing, and then folded in half onto a plate like a proper omelette. I topped it with one more slice of Havarti. I ate that whole thing and some bullet proof coffee. It was so good! Later on, I ate one mo...