Empyrean Engine

I am going in the wrong direction. I am now up by 9 lbs from the lowest point. I knew I would gain weight with eating, but I didn't expect 9 pounds! Like, what? This is insane. I know that most of this has to be water. There's no way it isn't. I can't lose more than a half a pound of fat or muscle per day, and I certainly can't gain 9 lbs of fat or muscle in two days. It's just not possible. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  358  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs If CICO (calories in, calories out) means anything at all (and we all pretty much know that CICO is BS), I know I have not eaten 31,500 calories over my metabolic consumption in just these past 2 days. I may have eaten 3,500 in total over these two days. That's well below what my body would consume while at rest. Water weighs a lot, and this has to be water weight. But, again, my feet don't show any signs of retention. I wonder where it could be. It'...

I am unhappy. I ate delicious food today, and I'm not unhappy about that. What I am unhappy about is the fact that my weight jumped up by 4.4 lbs in just one day. According to the calories in, calories out (CICO) theory, I would have had to consume somewhere in the vicinity of 15,400 calories over my metabolic rate of caloric consumption to gain 4.4 lbs. That's simply not possible. I'm guessing this is water weight, although my feet are as svelte as ever. The water retention must be elsewhere in my body. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  354.2  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I feel warmer now that I have been eating. That's a bit of a plus. Fasting makes me feel really cold, and I know that I am not alone in that. I see this in the forums all the time. But almost as soon as I ate, I felt warmer. I really enjoyed the corned beef, and even though it started out over 2 lbs uncooked, by the time it was all co...

I am going to eat well tomorrow. I bought a corned beef brisket, and I plan to cook it in the Instant Pot pressure cooker. My fast ends at 11:00 AM tomorrow morning, so there is plenty of time to cook it. It will probably take about an hour, I think. I'm not certain. I've done it before, but I can't remember how long it took. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  349  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs Also, I lost more than a pound since yesterday, so I'm thrilled about that! I'm under 350 lbs! I can't believe it. I never thought I would see it happen, but I'm here, and I keep losing. I love that I finally found something that definitely works for me, is sustainable for the long term, and will give me all the health benefits I really need! So for my re-feed, I plan to take it a bit slow so I don't get too sick to my stomach. I've been doing pretty well with that thus far. My 5-day fasts have been really successf...

I had some pretty extreme anger yesterday while I was trying to make my husband's meal. I can't explain it. It was completely irrational, and I knew I was being irrational, but I couldn't calm down. Everything was making me annoyed and angry. I was trying to mix something, and I spilled a bit, and it made me angry. I was try to open a bag of salad greens, and it wouldn't open, and it made me angry. I really don't know what happened. And my poor husband was an innocent victim in all of this. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  350.8  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I lost about a half a pound. The joy of losing half a pound doesn't detract from the shame and sadness I feel from the anger I displayed for no reason yesterday. This past week at work has been the most stressful ever, it seems. Just every customer I have had the pleasure to speak with has been an absolute jerk. I don't get it. Is there something in the air...

I feel a bit blah today. I'm not certain why that is. I should be feeling good, up, chipper. I am losing weight. I feel good on my fast. I'm 57 hours in to another 120-hour fast, and I have been supplementing with minimal electrolytes and trying to get in a bit more water. I just feel a bit bummed. Maybe I am feeling a bit burnt out by the recent rash of bad customers I have had to deal with at work. Maybe my high blood glucose readings have me feeling a bit defeated. I really don't know what it is. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  351.2  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs My weight is down again as expected. It's not as much as I'd have liked ot see, but I think I am on the right track with hydration this time, so this is enough. This is a good rate of loss. While the lowest I have seen has been 351 lbs a few days back, I think I'm doing well for now at 351.2 lbs today. I believe the 351 lbs was due to some dehydrat...

My dreaded physical is coming up. I don't want to do it. I really hate doctors, but I know that it's super important to be under the care of a physician. This is especially true now that I have completely changed my diet and lifestyle. I want to lose weight as quickly as possible, but I also want to make sure I do it in a healthy way. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  352.4  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I am fasting today. My weight is down from yesterday which is great and also a bit expected. It is down quite a bit, though -- about 1.8 lbs. That has to be water for the most part. The most I can expect to lose is half-a-pound-a-day of fat through healthy eating (or not eating as the case may be). I am concerned that I may be dehydrated, but I'm not too concerned. My real worry is that the doctor will want to put me on drugs for diabetes control. I really don't want to take medications if I can avoid it. I kno...

Yep! Just as expected, my weight has gone into the rafters again. I am at 354.2 lbs again today. Overall, my loss for the month is still averaging about a half-a-pound-a-day, so I'm not mad. I'm curious to see what happens in the morning, though. I think I may have a hydration issue. I haven't been drinking a lot of water. I may need to start doing that. I'm just so afraid of depleting my electrolytes. I am still not confident I have the mix of electrolytes correct. I keep hearing different things from different sources. No one seems to agree on this. It seems like a simple question to me: how much of what do I need? Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  354.2  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs My blood glucose was alarmingly high today, too. It was in the 170s. I just don't get it. I know I haven't been consuming carbohydrates in excess. I know I have been getting enough fats to cover my protein consumption, and I...