Empyrean Engine

My weight is down again. And not just down. I'm at 388 lbs which is lower than my lowest point so far. I successfully broke that nasty plateau. I'm hoping it's all downhill from here. When I do my weigh-ins, I know I've mentioned that I step on and off the scale many times until I see three of the same number (generally in a row). Today it had stopped on 387.8 lbs a couple of times. This is how I know that 387 lbs is just around the corner. Perhaps that will be tomorrow's weight. I don't know. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   388  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs So I read more about that one person's thoughts on the set-point theory; they believe it is incorrect, or, in the very least, not whole. While there are some good points presented by the writer, there are a few glaring problems. I don't profess to be an expert, but I think I have a fairly good mind about things. I won't say that I'm absolutel...

My weight is headed in the right direction today, but I am still almost a pound above my lowest point. I seem to be hovering in the vicinity of 389 lbs right now. I would like to see 388 lbs again. I think that goes without saying. I said it anyway. It's just how I do. I was reading a blog from another person who had interesting thoughts about set-point theory. They contend that what we theorize about a set point is not correct, or that it is, at the very least, only part of the whole story. I'm still researching it myself. I was investigating the plateau issue when I found it, and when I know more, I'll write about what I've learned. Until then, if this is working for me, ad it appears to be for the most part, then I shall continue on this path for the nonce. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   389  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I'm not hungry. That's a good thing. I have spent an inordinate amount of time...

I didn't fare so well against the pizza monster today. The scale showed 389.2 lbs. To be honest, I expected a bigger up-blip because of my poor dietary choices of late. But today I had a few bread twists. They had Parmesan and garlic butter on them. I couldn't resist, and I had, like, 4 of them. They weren't large, but I had many more calories than I needed. Weekends are the worst! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  389.2 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs It's Thursday night. It's my weekend. It's game night. The deck is stacked against me. I have all manner of excuses, and none of them are good. Today is just one day. Tomorrow I will do better. 'Cause tomorrow's another day  And I'm thirsty anyway  So bring on the rain ~ Bring On The Rain, Jo Dee Messina So let me just go over all of the thiings I ate today. I'm doing this for me. I need to feel the whole shame of what I did to myself. And ag...

I seem to be holding steady at 388.6 lbs from yesterday to today. That's good news, actually. I feel like I overate a bit yesterday. I'm still feeling full right now. I served a full plate of food -- the amount I used to eat before SLD -- and I was able to eat the vegetables, nibble the meat, and eat a couple of spoonfuls of the macaroni and cheese before I was sated. I didn't stop there, though. I ate a bit more meat -- it was just so good! Then I felt miserable for a few hours. How on earth did I ever consume so much and think it was not a lot? I'll never know the answer to that riddle. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight: 388.6 lbs Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs If that wasn't enough, I also had about a 1/2 cup of ice cream. I wanted it. I didn't need it. I felt so gluttonous. Why did I do it? I wasn't hungry. The oil was working. My appetite was suppressed. I just wanted to taste some ice cream. That's where I stop...

I am still on my way down to my goal, and that means I'm still under the short-term goal of 389 lbs that I achieved yesterday! Yay! I promised photos, and they are in this post. Scroll down, but be prepared to see a very large person. I'm still nearly 400 lbs. The important thing is that I can definitely see a change in my body from 10 lbs ago. It's subtle, but it's there. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   388.6  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I may still be huge, but I'm happy. I'm happy because I'm losing this weight, and I will achieve my life goal of being a normal sized human. There are things I want to do that  can't do because I am not yet normal-sized. For example, I hate roller coasters, but I may just ride one now that I will be able to get into a car and fit the bar over my lap. I will have a lap! OMG! I just thought about that. I had one once. it disappeared. I will have one again. There...

Woo! Another short-term goal achieved! I'm at 389.4 lbs today!! Goodbye plateau, hello downward slide! I'm confident it will continue downward now, and I'm setting the new short-term goal at 359 lbs. That seems reasonable and very achievable, but it's a weight I've only heard of in legends and folklore. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   389.4  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I accidentally ruined my 2-hour window last night while cooking brinner. I had taken my oil, and I was 15 minutes into my flavorless following hour when I started cooking so that we could eat once the hour was over. Then it happened. I tasted the meat! It wasn't a huge bite. It was a tiny crumble of the taco meat I was preparing for the burritos we were about to have. I had over-seasoned it a bit before, and I wanted to make sure it wasn't over- or under-seasoned this time. I didn't even think about what I was doing. I tasted it, and it...

Today is much better than yesterday, I'm glad to report. I saw 390.8 lbs on the scale, and it's only a matter of time until I see the sweet 389 lbs I want to get to. Short-term goal, here I come! I haven't been to see the porcelain fairy to drop off any treasure in the past few days. I bet that's part of my problem. It's brewing. I can feel it. As silly as it may sound, I think I haven't been eating quite enough to make me need to drop off treasures to the fairy on a daily basis. It's more like every 3 or 4 days. I suspect that I will have a dramatic "whoosh" downward when it happens. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:   390.8  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  389 lbs I much preferred the original trajectory I was headed in from Day 31 to Day 32; it had me on track to weigh less than 365 lbs by the end of this 30-day period. It would have had me at 365 lbs on Day 46. Clearly not a realistic goal seeing as I dropp...