Empyrean Engine

OMG! 375.2 lbs! This is the lowest ever!!! Wow. I can't even tell you how exciting it is to see 375 lbs on the scale. Most people would be, like, "that's still super heavy, though." I know. I know it is, but you don't understand! I've been over 400 lbs for so, so, very long! I'm almost 25 lbs under the 400-lb mark. Imagine you've been trying to lose that last 10 lbs that just wont budge, and then all of a sudden it's gone. That's the closest thing I can equate to this feeling. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  375.2  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs How much do I love down-blips? All of it. All of the much. Think about this. It's a loss of almost 40 lbs. That's, like, 4 10-lb bowling balls. Try carrying 4 10-lb bowling balls. One is heavy enough! I use a 10-lb ball. I know how heavy that sucker is! And let me tell you, losing the equivalent weight of 4 of those: wow!    I'm also having ...

We stopped using the Bertoli oil, and my weight is dropping again. It's, like, an instant difference. I wonder if this is just a short trend due to the change itself. I fear that my weight will go back up. This is the lowest number I've seen so far, though, and that's super exciting. I'm cautious about calling the plateau over, though.  I currently weigh 376 lbs. I really want to see the number drop. It's officially a loss of 39 lbs in total at this point, and I can't wait to hit that sweet 40-lb loss. It will come soon enough, I'm sure. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  376  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I am a little worried about the holidays coming up. Thanksgiving is the worst because it's the one Holiday I really go all out on. It's the Holiday my husband has "given" me, basically. I'm allowed to go wild, spend a fortune, and invite all of our friends to enjoy a fancy meal that I ...

Yay! I'm down by about .6 lbs today. My scale gave me a very pretty 376.4 lbs today. It's no 376 lbs even, but who am I to complain? I'm under 377 lbs. Heck! I'm under 400 lbs, for that matter! I never thought I'd see this side of 400 lbs again, but here I am, almost 25 lbs below that mark. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  376.4  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I can't believe it's already November 2nd. I've been procrastinating a lot on things I should be working on -- like clay ornaments and crocheted blankets and shawls. I ought to be ashamed of myself. I'm not. I'll panic as the time draws near for me to have completed things as I realize I didn't complete them as I had planned. I work well under pressure, but I shouldn't know that about myself. I really do need more discipline! Maybe I'll work on something when I get home from work today. I also have to finish planning for Thanksgivi...

Ugh! 377 lbs. Okay, body. It's time to stop now. Go back down. Down! I didn't even have any candy. What is even happening? I was so good today. I swear! I honestly think it's the oil. I think the fact that we switched to Bertoli, and Bertoli is not completely flavorless, has messed up the whole system. There's only one bottle left of this stuff. Just 12.5 days worth. Then we can switch back to the H-E-B brand that I prefer. That has so little taste, it's like drinking water (especially because I take a swig of water right before and after I down a tablespoon of the ELOO). Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  377  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs Do you ever just want to do something? I mean, something crafty or hand-made. I get that way sometimes. I just want to make something. I want to get my hands on something that I can use to create something. I have a lot of projects started and half finished. I should reall...

I am up by another .2 lbs today. I'm at 376.8 lbs. That's not a huge set-back. I am a panda, and that makes it all better! Happy Halloween! Yay! I love Halloween. I don't do as much for Halloween as I used to, but it's still fun to dress up. It's also fun to know that no matter where I go, a skeleton comes with me. There is a skeleton inside of me right now! Spooky!!! I had purchased a set of ears and panda paws to wear today, but I couldn't locate them. I also usually give my coworkers candy and trinkets, but I didn't do that this year. My husband succeeded in his yearly endeavor to discourage me from doing it. He tries all the time, but this is the first year he's succeeded. This year I realized that there are just so few people that I come into contact with anymore, that it's hardly worth it. We both work in the same call center, and we do the same job. We are support technicians who help people get their Internet and TV service working pr...

I am back up by .6 lbs today to 376.6 lbs. How sad. I'm still under that 377-pound plateau, though, so I'm going to consider this good. It's not the end of the world. Weight loss is definitely a roller-coaster ride of emotions; isn't it? Tomorrow is Halloween, and I will dress like a panda as I have done for the past 4 years. I have a costume I made for myself. It's basically a giant white sack that I put on like a diaper. It's got two leg holes, and it cinches just under my breasts. It's a drawstring, so I can tighten it to fit. Then I put a black "thing" on over it to cover my breasts and arms. The black thing goes all the way up to my neck. It's nice and stretchy, so it's kind of like the top of a leotard. I made it from a pair of stretch pants, and I simply slit open the crotch just large enough to fit my head through. Then I put in thumb holes to keep the sleeves in place and cover my hands up to the fingers. It works really well. ...

Finally! Progress! I'm at 376 lbs today. That is a huge victory. It's a new number that I haven't yet seen. I can't be more thrilled. Maybe I finally broke my plateau. I'm still not convinced, but I'm hopeful. I'm not as discouraged now as I was for this past week or so. This plateau has lasted about 10 days, and I'm sick of it. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  376  lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  359 lbs I'm glad to see progress finally. I'm not sure what I did to trigger it. Perhaps nothing. Perhaps my body just needed a breather for a bit from the rapid weight loss I experienced recently. I get that. But time's ticking, body. Enjoy the rest, but get back to work. I need a better beach body, and not the one I'm currently sporting! Yep. That's what I look like. Summer is only 234 days away! It is fast-approaching, and I need to be able to fit a bikini onto this body! Maybe not a bikini. Let...