2018 JUL 22 -- Day 102

Woohoo! I am under 340 lbs today! I am at 339.6 lbs! Sure, it's just barely under, but under is under! This is a victory! I feel victorious! This makes me feel great, and I love seeing myself make progress. It's super exciting, and it's motivating. I'm losing slowing, just 3 lbs in total so far this month, but it's a net loss and not a gain. I'm good with that.

Starting weight: 401 lbs
Current weight: 339.6 lbs ⇩
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 325 lbs

My husband and I stopped at the Walmart yesterday because I had a whim to buy a sports bra that I saw the other day. He convinced me to get smaller sizes than what I would normally choose. The dressing rooms were not open at that time of morning. so I had to buy them on faith and try them on at home. They fit!

They didn't all fit. I deliberately got one that was a bit smaller than the others. I have been wearing a bra size 44 DDD for some time, and the smallest sports bra I got was for 38 DDD. It was tight. I almost got it on and fastened, though. So it won't be long until I can fit properly in that size. The other tops were not based on bra sizes. There were two 22s, and a 3X which is, like, 22/24 usually. I can't believe I fit into them so well! 4X and 5X in this type of clothing used to be too tight to wear comfortably. I used to have to buy clothes in a "loose" 4X or 5X.

I am making so much good progress. This is really exciting. I can't wait to see what size I will be able to wear in March, 2019. I am fighting hard to lose as much as I can as quickly as possible, but I am fully confident that I am doing it in a healthy way. If I could just stop myself from allowing my stress to spiral out of control sometimes, I'd be faring a lot better. I need to learn some medication techniques or something.

I am so much smaller than when I started graph:

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2018 AUG 2 -- Day 113

My weight is down to 340.6 lbs again today, but that's what it has been every other day for the past 5 days. This is not encouraging. I like that it's gone down instead of up, but it's still not as far down as I'd hoped. I'm not feeling great about my progress at the moment. I'm beginning to doubt I can succeed with my ultimate weight loss goal at all. Am I losing inches, maybe? I don't know. I don't feel like I have, but I'm too afraid to measure myself. What if I haven't lost inches or if I have gained inches? I would be so discouraged! Starting weight: 401 lbs Current weight: 340.6 lbs ⇩ Long-term Goal: 145 lbs Short-term Goal: 325 lbs My blood glucose readings were in the 120s when I first started measuring, but now they are staying in the 150 to 160 range. Every now and then they get into the 190s or 200s. That's fairly frightening. Why is my blood glucose so high? I read that there is possibly glucose in my fat cells th...

2018 JUL 28 -- Day 108

I have lost a little bit of weight from yesterday to today, but I'm still not too happy. I am about three pounds heavier than where I should be right now. I know it's because food inevitably causes weight gain, and breaking my fast two days a week will invariably make my weight bounce back a bit. While I have to accept it, I don't have to like it. Starting weight: 401 lbs Current weight: 339 lbs ⇩ Long-term Goal: 145 lbs Short-term Goal: 325 lbs I was feeling a bit yuck from a combination of my fight with the porcelain fairy and the stress I've been under. I decided that eating would be a good idea today, so I had a salad with a nice, fat-infused Italian dressing I had made and some feta cheese and a few cherry tomatoes. It was really tasty. I also ate about an ounce or two of pork rinds. You'd be surprised at how many rinds are in a single ounce. They are a bit difficult to weight, though. I had quite a handful of them. Likely, it was two h...

2018 JUL 30 -- Day 110

I gained 3 lbs. I hate that I gained 3 lbs. I made the decision to change my eating regime and start eating when I feel hungry. I ate with my husband when we got home from work yesterday. We had taco salads. It was good, but I am now 3 lbs heavier than I was yesterday. This doesn't make me feel good. Starting weight: 415 lbs Current weight: 341 lbs ⇧ Long-term Goal: 145 lbs Short-term Goal: 325 lbs I had about the same amount of actual salad that he had, but while he had an Italian Romaine blend of lettuce, I had a spring mix with baby spinach. I also drank almost my entire 7-cup bottle of water -- maybe 5 cups of it. I know that fiber retains water, so I'm hoping that when I eliminate the salad as waste, I will lose this 3 lbs and then some. We shall see and only time will tell. I feel good, though. I feel better than I have in several days. That's telling. Have I been severely dehydrated, maybe? I don't know. Have I been missing out ...

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