Empyrean Engine

All of my discouragement is long gone now. The scale just gave me a 405! I know that the 404.8 that I saw over a week ago is going to show up again soon, and 399 is not far behind! Woo! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  405 lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs This is such a small victory, and I still weigh so much and have so much left to lose, but this is the first time in my life that I have felt that I control my weight, and it doesn't control me! Take that, fat!! More than 5 lbs gone over the past 6 days. I like that. It's not generally considered healthy to lose weight that quickly, but here in the super high numbers, I think it's generally okay. Taking the oil has become routine and is no longer a chore. I have experienced hunger, but I have been able will-power through it for the most part. I still eat my regular meals at my regular times, but I find that I can't handle much more than half my usual por...

I weighed myself before work again tonight. I like these lower numbers. I'm pretty sure this is due to not eating during sleep for at least 6 hours. Whatever the case, I'll take it! Yay! Low number! Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  406.4 lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs I'm at work. It's 10:30 PM. I've been feeling the hungry growly monster in my tummy, but I've been ignoring him... until now. I'm eating my sandwich. According to the book, you are only supposed to feel hungry when you're body is below its set-point. Is my set point higher than 406.4 lbs? Wow! I need to find out how to lower that a lot faster. How can I make it 145 lbs? LOL. I know the answer to this. It gradually becomes lower over time; I must be patient. The trend is still downward on the whole, but right now it is still well above the first measurement I took at 404.8 the day I got my scale. It's going down, and I saw 406.4 lbs today ...

I just got to work. It is presently 7:50 PM CDT. I have a feeling in my tummy that may be hunger, but I'm not sure. I tried the new oil my husband bought from Walmart last night. It says Bertolli Extra Light Tasting Olive Oil on the label, but it's in the green bottle, and it tastes very much of olives. I think it was mislabeled. I mainly think it was mislabeled because of the ordeal my husband had in simply trying to purchase it. He went into the store on a mission: find a large bottle of any brand of extra light-tasting olive oil (ELOO). He found a bottle -- a big, 51 oz bottle. He took it to the counter. It rang up as Extra Virgin Olive Oil (EVOO), and not what I need. Apparently this was accidentally shipped with the EVOO, and it shouldn't have even been available. They don't stick the Bertolli ELOO at all. The label said it was ELOO. The EVOO price was $19, but he got a discount becuse it wasn't even supposed to be a thing, so this ended up being only $10...

It is Day 9, and I have used all of my oil. Well, not all of it. I still have one dose left. I'll take that one when I get home. The size of the bottle that I started with says it has 36 servings. One serving is one tablespoon, so that makes sense; 36 divided by nine would make four. I take four tablespoons of oil a day; two tablespoons twice a day. On the way home from work, my husband and I stopped at the Walmart. He's in the store getting me a bottle of oil. It's going to be a larger bottle than before. I think I'm going to stick with this and see where it goes. I want to see what happens after doing this for a couple of months at least. Also, I haven't yet reached my goal of being under 400 lbs. I want to see the number three on the scale where that four is now. So far I feel pretty good. I'm definitely not as hungry as I used to be. Normally, I would simply ignore my hunger, but now I don't actually feel hungry so there's nothing to ignore. I...

Hurricane Harvey is wreaking havoc even here in Austin, TX. We don't have it as bad as locations farther south, though. My thoughts and prayers go out to all those affected, and I hope everyone stays safe. On a lighter note, "house fishing!" House fishing in Texas:  https://imgur.com/gallery/zNH34 I am home from work. I just gulped my oil. Food is not the boss of me! I don't feel very hungry at all to be quite honest. I didn't finish my lunch at work. I didn't finish my breakfast/dinner yesterday. I may eat the rest today after my flavor-free hour. I don't know. I might not eat anything! Here's where we stand at present: Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  407.8 lbs  ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs My weight's still a bit up (+3 lbs) from about 4 days ago when I saw 404.8 lbs on the scale, but it's down significantly (-2.8 lbs) from the day before yesterday when I saw 410.6 lbs. I like the downward tr...

I have decided that I'm not eating. At least today, I'm not. Maybe I will extend this moratorium on food another day, too. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  409.4 lbs ⇩  Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs Typically, I will get serious hunger pangs that make me feel like I'll starve and waste away to nothing if I don't eat. For the most part, I've had hunger twinges, but no full-on hunger pangs today. I can will-power past these twonges; the hunger pangs, though, those are another story. I suppose the ELOO is helping curb those as I haven't felt excessively hungry since starting this diet experiment. Mu husband hates it when I'm hungry like that as I tend to get "hangry," and I bite his head off (probably out of hunger... mmm, delish! nom, nom, nom...) I'm kind of proud that I've managed to stick with this for 7 days. I don't know if I've ever really tried sticking to something for a long period of...

6:15 AM on August 26 right now. I'm discouraged, but it's only Day 6. Got on the scale a few times today, and my body is being weird again. There's no way I could gain 6 lbs in one day, right? Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  410.6 lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs I wonder if I'm doing this right. I wonder if smelling food violates the 2-hour flavorless window. I wonder if my weight is fluctuating due to other factors such as bloat and water retention. I did have quite a bit more food this "weekend" than I typically do. I'll continue as planned and hope for better numbers to come. I don't want to try "noseplugging" as others have done; it sounds miserable. Basically, noseplugging entails wearing noseplugs like those worn by swimmers for the 2-hour flavorless window and sometimes during meals for more of a boost in the effect. I tried swallowing while holding my nose, and it made my ears pop. ...

Yesterday seems to have been just an anomly or a blip or something. I just weighed-in, and I'm back down to 404.8 lbs. Bodies are weird. This is my weekend, so I didn't work last night. I was pretty good at remembering to take the 2 Tbsp of ELOO, but I did it around 7:20 PM which is about 30 minutes later than usual. I don't think it'll matter much. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  404.8 lbs ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  399 lbs When I had breakfast/dinner yesterday, I felt the bloating that others have described, and I felt over-full when barely halfway through my meal. I had to give the rest to my husband. I had nearly all of my chicken left, and was happy to take it off my hands, but I hope my diet doesn't start fattening him up! It's 6:25 AM. I don't feel like making dinner as I'm not hungry, but that's also probably because instead of the sack lunch at work, we ate a meatloaf dinner I made. Calorie-wise it sho...

My husband was super chipper today when I was getting ready to leave for work.  For the most part we work the same shift; we have the same schedule, work the same job on the same shift at the same place. We are one day off, though. I work one night when he doesn't work, and vice-versa. Tonight's my alone night. My Wedding Day -- 5-10-2015 Why was he chipper? I asked myself this question, though I shouldn't question it. I wondered if it may have been the fact that I got a scale, he learned I was trying this diet, and he's happy I'm losing weight? He married me at my heaviest, so I could just be showing my insecurities here. It could just be that he got his Madden 2017 game, and he's happy he gets to play it on his weekend, about 2 or 3 days before the official release because he bought the special G.O.A.T edition. I don't know. That's probably it. He is so romantic, and sometimes I just stomp all over that. I feel bad about it later, but it'...

I'm writing and posting this on the 23rd, but my day starts at 6:30 PM (my morning) and ends after I get home from work the next morning at around 5:00 AM. Gotta love the graveyard shift! I'm considering this the 22nd. My Senior Picture - 1996 It's Day 3, and I'm getting much better at taking my medicine, so to speak. Nary a gag to be had this time! Go me! *fist pump* I've found that the best method of getting the ELOO down is the sip-and-swig. I'm sticking with that. I sip a little oil, I take a swig of water, and I repeat until down 2 Tbps of ELOO. The diarrhea didn't last at all. I'm convinced now that it was due to the dietary change. Darn that chili-mac! Rude! I got my scale today. Yay! And the pleasant surprise that I am 9.2 lbs down from what I thought I was starting at. This is a great motivator! I'm thinking I might keep the starting weight at 415 lbs since that was the last known number before starting. Current weight will hopef...

I still don't know my actual weight, so I'm going to say again, current weight is roughly 415 lbs. I hope my scale gets here soon so I can get an accurate measurement. The suspense is killing me! What I sincerely hope is that I'm not more  than 415 lbs. That would be the worst! Ugh. I don't even want to imagine it. Starting weight: 415 lbs Current weight: 415 lbs Long-term Goal: 145 lbs Short-term Goal: 399 lbs I did both doses successfully yesterday. Yay! I did one successfully before work today, too! Yay! I almost died! OMG! Okay, maybe I'm being a little dramatic. It wasn't so bad, I guess. There are any number of worse things I can think of having to endure. Here's the deal. There is no taste, and it's oil, so when it goes down, it sorta coats my throat and makes me want to gag a bit. I have tried putting the oil in a glass of water -- on top of the water -- and sipping. The issue there is that the oil ends up accumulating at the bottom ...

I have decided to try a new diet that I just heard about. It's been around for over 10 years, but my husband was just reading Freakonomics for the first time, and there was a bit about Dr. Seth Roberts and his self-experimentation that led to the discovery of how the human body interacts with food. I'm intrigued. I'm going to give it a go! Last known weight: 415 lbs  This is the number I'm going to use as my starting weight. I'm not able to weigh myself frequently as you might imagine. The last time I got a proper weight check was when I visited my Doctor. It's been a few months, but the last known weight measure was 415 lbs. I have ordered a scale from Amazon that weighs up to 440 lbs; perhaps it will give me a more accurate reading. I need to wait a few days to get it. High school sophomore, 1994 My first short-term goal will be to get into the 300s. I haven't seen my weight in the 300s since I was in Middle School -- 6th through 8th grades. ...