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2018 JUL 17 -- Day 97

I'm down a bit more today, and I'm happy with it. I had a nice chat with the porcelain fairy. We came to an understanding. I was feeling a bit bloated and gross the past few days, but I feel much better now. I feel rather lighter as well. When the porcelain fairy and I don't speak for a while, I start to feel a bit heavy. I may not gain a lot of weight, but the general feeling I have is that I'm really heavy. It's hard to explain.

Starting weight: 401 lbs
Current weight: 342.2 lbs 
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 325 lbs

I have been getting really tense at work lately. I do a lot of typing for my entire eight-and-a-half-hour shift. I know that I don't have the best posture or sitting position, but in addition to that, while I am typing I start to tense up and raise my shoulders. They stay up and tense for a while. I start to ache, and it makes me realize what I'm doing, and I try my best to relax. Then it happens again.

Today is my final shift of the week, and then I start my weekend. I'm planning on making bunless bacon cheeseburgers for me and my husband. That sounds really tasty, but my stomach doesn't feel like it wants any food right now. I will make him a salad, but I think I will forgo the salad for myself. I'm going to see whether that helps me to avoid a weight gain.

I need to remember to break my fast a bit slowly, though. Two weeks ago I had a bit of a fight with the porcelain fairy after eating too much too soon on my fast-breaking day. I do not recommend it. Maybe I will start with some coffee or tea and cream or butter or something. I may be able to handle some olives, cheese, and hard boiled eggs a bit later, too. We'll see.

I got a nice, big tomato to slice for our burgers. I need to get some lettuce, though. I forgot about that. I'll get that on the way home from work. So far it hasn't been as bad as I expected having our house guest back. I can't feel as free to roam around the apartment as usual, but I also haven't had to do any extra work. That's good.

He came. He ate. He stayed. Houseguest graph:



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