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2018 JUN 18 -- Day 68

I am so fat! Ugh!

I told my husband that, and he said, 'you're not fat." It's sweet, but it's not entirely accurate. I mean, I am definitely fat. I know he doesn't know how to respond in a situation like that. It's endearing. So I mentioned that it wasn't accurate, but I let him know I appreciated it.

He told me that I wasn't as fat as the day we got married, and then he wasn't sure if he put his foot in his mouth or not. I will take it as the compliment he meant it to be. I'm glad I've reduced in size even if I am struggling to lose more right now.

Poor guy! I must make things so hard on him. LOL

Starting weight: 415 lbs
Current weight: 357.4 lbs ⇧ 
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 325 lbs

 I'm up again by over a pound. I really don't know what's happening here. I'm just going to keep going with what I have been doing. Maybe I have gained some muscle. Maybe it's water weight. My feet have been a bit swollen these past few days. That could very well be a thing.

On a happier note, my grandma called today, and she asked me whether I got the check she sent. She is footing the bill for our cruise already, so i was surprised to know there was an additional check involved. She gave us more money to cover tipping and shore excursions! She is so wonderful, but I feel a bit guilty accepting such extravagance. I need to get over that.  This is something she wanted to do. I hope she gets to come along with us. She is in her 90s, but she's pretty spry.

I am still hopeful that I ca lose a significant amount of weight so I can wear really cute clothes on the cruise. That is just going to make it so much more enjoyable for me. I am trying to hold off on buying anything new at all until it's almost time to go on the cruise. I will continue to wear the same clothes I have no matter how big they get on me. I have a sewing machine if I need to alter things. I just want to feel the full effect of the satisfaction and happiness that seeing my new size will give me.

I can't want to see the new lower number on the tag graph:


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