I made some really yummy broccoli and shrimp today. It created 6 servings of absolute heaven! I served it to my husband with some Lasagna Casserole. He was enjoying it so much, and then tragedy struck! He set his plate on the corner of his table, and down it went. It up-ended and left all of his delicious food all over the floor! It was all I could do to keep from crying.
It's not that I had worked so hard, but the loss of such delicious food made me really, really sad. To hide this, I panicked instead. The true emotion was a deep sadness, though. It was a great sense of loss. No one would be able to eat that food. I didn't know I was so emotionally attached to food! I thought I was immune to its siren call.
Starting weight: 415 lbs
Current weight: 362 lbs ⇧
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 359 lbs
The scale is up again today about point-six lbs. I'm not going to worry, though. I will simply have faith and carry one. This, too, shall pass! I will start losing again. I will see 359 lbs. I will see 145 lbs eventually, too. I got this!
I really need to stop looking at the scale, but it is really addictive. At work tonight, my co-worker noted that she had to wear a skirt today because none of her pants fit. She's pretty thin, but she does have a bit of a protruding belly as if she is bloated and inflamed. She's been eating junk food daily, and I believe that's what's causing the bloat and inflammation, but I'm not going to proffer my opinion. I shouldn't really have an opinion. I'm a behemoth! When I get down to my goal, and those who knew me when see how far I've come, I'll more leverage to say "it's probably not a good idea to eat junk food every day." Until then, though, I'm keeping my know-it-all mouth shut! LOL
I know that I have a really good understanding of the principles now, but I simply have no room to talk about such matters as what a healthy diet looks like until I become a normal-sized human. It's a bit frustrating, and it's a bit unfair, but it is what it is. For me, this will be a long journey of healing, and I will be the better for it, but it's going to be a long, long while until people listen to my advice on the subject of dieting. I get that. I'm not bothered by it. I just wish it could be done already!
When will my reflection show who I am inside? graph:
It's not that I had worked so hard, but the loss of such delicious food made me really, really sad. To hide this, I panicked instead. The true emotion was a deep sadness, though. It was a great sense of loss. No one would be able to eat that food. I didn't know I was so emotionally attached to food! I thought I was immune to its siren call.
Starting weight: 415 lbs
Current weight: 362 lbs ⇧
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 359 lbs
The scale is up again today about point-six lbs. I'm not going to worry, though. I will simply have faith and carry one. This, too, shall pass! I will start losing again. I will see 359 lbs. I will see 145 lbs eventually, too. I got this!
I really need to stop looking at the scale, but it is really addictive. At work tonight, my co-worker noted that she had to wear a skirt today because none of her pants fit. She's pretty thin, but she does have a bit of a protruding belly as if she is bloated and inflamed. She's been eating junk food daily, and I believe that's what's causing the bloat and inflammation, but I'm not going to proffer my opinion. I shouldn't really have an opinion. I'm a behemoth! When I get down to my goal, and those who knew me when see how far I've come, I'll more leverage to say "it's probably not a good idea to eat junk food every day." Until then, though, I'm keeping my know-it-all mouth shut! LOLI know that I have a really good understanding of the principles now, but I simply have no room to talk about such matters as what a healthy diet looks like until I become a normal-sized human. It's a bit frustrating, and it's a bit unfair, but it is what it is. For me, this will be a long journey of healing, and I will be the better for it, but it's going to be a long, long while until people listen to my advice on the subject of dieting. I get that. I'm not bothered by it. I just wish it could be done already!
When will my reflection show who I am inside? graph:
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