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My weight is down to 340.6 lbs again today, but that's what it has been every other day for the past 5 days. This is not encouraging. I like that it's gone down instead of up, but it's still not as far down as I'd hoped. I'm not feeling great about my progress at the moment. I'm beginning to doubt I can succeed with my ultimate weight loss goal at all. Am I losing inches, maybe? I don't know. I don't feel like I have, but I'm too afraid to measure myself. What if I haven't lost inches or if I have gained inches? I would be so discouraged! Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  340.6  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs My blood glucose readings were in the 120s when I first started measuring, but now they are staying in the 150 to 160 range. Every now and then they get into the 190s or 200s. That's fairly frightening. Why is my blood glucose so high? I read that there is possibly glucose in  my fat cells th

And and I am back up to 341 lbs today. This is making me sad. I know that my body is confused by the food I am eating, but I hope this doesn't last much longer. My spirits are low. This is stressful. The only good thing is that the food I have been enjoying is really good. I get to eat when my husband eats. That's fun. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  341  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I thought I was beginning to understand my body a bit better as I have finally finished reading Dr. Fung's book, The Obesity Code  which had a lot of detail in it that I was missing from just watching his YouTube videos and reading the content on his website. I thought I had this down. Apparently I don't. I'll keep going and eating daily to see whether my body begins to respond better and start losing weight again, but I'm not sure how long I want to keep trying this with such poor results. This is shaping up to be a pretty well-def

My weight is down today from yesterday, but it's way up from my lowest point. I don't like it. I want it to drop again. The problem is that I have decided to try eating instead of fasting for 5 days a week to see if I can kick my weight loss back into high gear. I don't know how long I will continue with this pattern, but what I hope to see is my weight stop going up, and start heading down again while I'm eating. My weight loss slowed a bit too much for my liking, and that's why I'm trying this. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  340.6  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I love that I get to be near my husband while we work. We are together nearly every day, and nearly every hour of every days. We are not tired of each other yet. But the awesome thing is that we get to work together doing the same job int he same office with nearly identical schedules. We have a one-day shift between our schedules; he works a day that I do

I gained 3 lbs. I hate that I gained 3 lbs. I made the decision to change my eating regime and start eating when I feel hungry. I ate with my husband when we got home from work yesterday. We had taco salads. It was good, but I am now 3 lbs heavier than I was yesterday. This doesn't make me feel good. Starting weight:  415 lbs Current weight:  341  lbs  ⇧   Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I had about the same amount of actual salad that he had, but while he had an Italian Romaine blend of lettuce, I had a spring mix with baby spinach. I also drank almost my entire 7-cup bottle of water -- maybe 5 cups of it. I know that fiber retains water, so I'm hoping that when I eliminate the salad as waste, I will lose this 3 lbs and then some. We shall see and only time will tell. I feel good, though. I feel better than I have in several days. That's telling. Have I been severely dehydrated, maybe? I don't know. Have I been missing out on some nutrients

Down a pound. That's more like it! It's still not the lowest number I've seen, but I'll get back there. I have no doubt about that. I love that I can confidently say that. Before I knew the cause for my obesity, I would wonder if I'd ever lose a pound, and if I had, I would doubt I'd ever lose another before gaining 10. This is refreshing. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  339  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I have been reading more and more of Dr. Fung's book,  The Obesity Code . I thought I had heard all he had to say on the topic from the YouTube videos and his IDM (Intensive Dietary Management) website, but no. There is a plethora of details in this book that I haven't yet heard. For example, I now know why artificial sweeteners kick me in the  tuchus . I also learned more about the "Dawn Phenomenon" which is a cause of higher blood glucose readings in the mornings -- or just after you wake up.

I have lost a little bit of weight from yesterday to today, but I'm still not too happy. I am about three pounds heavier than where I should be right now. I know it's because food inevitably causes weight gain, and breaking my fast two days a week will invariably make my weight bounce back a bit. While I have to accept it, I don't have to like it. Starting weight:  401 lbs Current weight:  339  lbs   ⇩ Long-term Goal:  145 lbs Short-term Goal:  325 lbs I was feeling a bit yuck from a combination of my fight with the porcelain fairy and the stress I've been under. I decided that eating would be a good idea today, so I had a salad with a nice, fat-infused Italian dressing I had made and some feta cheese and a few cherry tomatoes. It was really tasty. I also ate about an ounce or two of pork rinds. You'd be surprised at how many rinds are in a single ounce. They are a bit difficult to weight, though. I had quite a handful of them. Likely, it was two handfuls,