Yay! 405 lbs today! The scale showed 405 lbs three times in a row, and that is good enough to believe its accuracy. I'm back on track, and hopefully I can continue the downward trend to meet my first short-term goal of 399 lbs. To be under 400 lbs would be miraculous. I can remember the last time I saw my weight under 400 lbs.
I was weighed when I was 13, and I was at around 385 lbs then. That's when my parents had me on Weight Watchers and using Slim- Fast and going to the gym regularly. All of that was a futile effort, though. I simply continued to gain and gain and gain. They were so disappointed in me. Well, my mother was; my father loved me regardless. My father's love has always been unconditional. I can't say the same of my mother's. Maybe it was. Maybe she did love me regardless but just wanted me to be thinner and look prettier. I don't know. I'll never really know. Both of my parents are gone now.
Starting weight: 415 lbs
Current weight: 405 lbs ⇩
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 399 lbs
But, I am still high on the excellent news that my weight is back down to 405 lbs. I avoided the pizza trap, and tomorrow marks 3 weeks I've been using this SLD method. I'm still up 0.2 lbs from the day I got my scale, but I have faith that I'll be back there in no time, and then drop lower than that. Even though I have had a net gain of 0.2 lbs in these three weeks, I'm fully confident that if I avoid pitfalls that seem to bring my weight up, I can keep dropping my weight and my set-point and ultimately achieve my long-term goal.
I went over what could have happened that had my weight jump so high that first time on Day 6. My husband and I ate a lot. It was a Friday. My husband and I were watching our friend's baby. I had gone to pick her up in the morning, and on the way home, I picked us up some hamburgers from P. Terry's. Them's some good burgers! But burgers alone did not cause an up-blip of over 5 lbs.
We were expecting we'd be watching her all day like we had the last time, but that didn't happen. Our friend was done running her errands early, and she came to pick up the baby after only a few ours. She invited us to go to lunch, and we all went to the nearby Denny's. I wasn't hungry. I shouldn't have eaten. I did, though. Perhaps P. Terry's burgers are a binge-trigger like pizza is.
I ordered a salad -- Kale and chicken breast with some kind of praline nuts and a very sweet and tangy dressing. I ate the whole salad, but that in itself wasn't my undoing. I also had two strawberry lemonades and our waitress (who is also a good friend of ours) made a special smoothie that she wanted me to taste. I drank it all. It was good. I was miserable. But it's easy to see how all of that food raised my weight up as much as eating that pizza did. That must've been a whole heck of a lot of calories I didn't need! Then I spent more than a week fighting to get it back off only to do it to myself again with pizza!
I feel smarter now for knowing all of this, but I also feel dumb for having done that to myself in the first place. However, there's a silver lining to the dark cloud. I started from a place of failure, but I climbed out of the hole. I not only did that once, but twice! If that doesn't show me that this SLD method works, then I don't know what would. Also, it has given me the confidence I need to keep fighting and stay on target and listen to my body. The point of the SLD method is to learn to listen to my body so I know when what I feel is hunger, and when it's just a want for taste or for something in my mouth or boredom or any other reason that is not true hunger.
And speaking of hunger, I discovered something about my body earlier today. When I saw the 405 lbs on the scale again, I got excited. I'm sure my body released some kind of chemical -- endorphines, maybe? Or adrenaline? I don't know what, but something. I felt something in my stomach. It felt like emotion-- that's the only way I can describe it. It felt like I could cry, or needed to cry. It made me wonder if that's a feeling I've had before that caused me to think I was hungry when I wasn't. Maybe this feeling is what makes me and others "eat ourfeelings" and gain weight.
I am in control or my hunger, and I am in control of my weight now. With the SLD method, I believe I can succeed when I have failed before. My husband told me that part of what makes any diet plan work is psychological. If that's true, then I have an even better chance at success! I have never not wanted it, that hasn't changed. What has changed is that I never truly believed until now that weight-loss was possible. I believe now. I've seen it happening with my own eyes, and my graph.
Back on track graph:
I was weighed when I was 13, and I was at around 385 lbs then. That's when my parents had me on Weight Watchers and using Slim- Fast and going to the gym regularly. All of that was a futile effort, though. I simply continued to gain and gain and gain. They were so disappointed in me. Well, my mother was; my father loved me regardless. My father's love has always been unconditional. I can't say the same of my mother's. Maybe it was. Maybe she did love me regardless but just wanted me to be thinner and look prettier. I don't know. I'll never really know. Both of my parents are gone now.Starting weight: 415 lbs
Current weight: 405 lbs ⇩
Long-term Goal: 145 lbs
Short-term Goal: 399 lbs
But, I am still high on the excellent news that my weight is back down to 405 lbs. I avoided the pizza trap, and tomorrow marks 3 weeks I've been using this SLD method. I'm still up 0.2 lbs from the day I got my scale, but I have faith that I'll be back there in no time, and then drop lower than that. Even though I have had a net gain of 0.2 lbs in these three weeks, I'm fully confident that if I avoid pitfalls that seem to bring my weight up, I can keep dropping my weight and my set-point and ultimately achieve my long-term goal.
I went over what could have happened that had my weight jump so high that first time on Day 6. My husband and I ate a lot. It was a Friday. My husband and I were watching our friend's baby. I had gone to pick her up in the morning, and on the way home, I picked us up some hamburgers from P. Terry's. Them's some good burgers! But burgers alone did not cause an up-blip of over 5 lbs.
We were expecting we'd be watching her all day like we had the last time, but that didn't happen. Our friend was done running her errands early, and she came to pick up the baby after only a few ours. She invited us to go to lunch, and we all went to the nearby Denny's. I wasn't hungry. I shouldn't have eaten. I did, though. Perhaps P. Terry's burgers are a binge-trigger like pizza is.
I ordered a salad -- Kale and chicken breast with some kind of praline nuts and a very sweet and tangy dressing. I ate the whole salad, but that in itself wasn't my undoing. I also had two strawberry lemonades and our waitress (who is also a good friend of ours) made a special smoothie that she wanted me to taste. I drank it all. It was good. I was miserable. But it's easy to see how all of that food raised my weight up as much as eating that pizza did. That must've been a whole heck of a lot of calories I didn't need! Then I spent more than a week fighting to get it back off only to do it to myself again with pizza!
I feel smarter now for knowing all of this, but I also feel dumb for having done that to myself in the first place. However, there's a silver lining to the dark cloud. I started from a place of failure, but I climbed out of the hole. I not only did that once, but twice! If that doesn't show me that this SLD method works, then I don't know what would. Also, it has given me the confidence I need to keep fighting and stay on target and listen to my body. The point of the SLD method is to learn to listen to my body so I know when what I feel is hunger, and when it's just a want for taste or for something in my mouth or boredom or any other reason that is not true hunger.
And speaking of hunger, I discovered something about my body earlier today. When I saw the 405 lbs on the scale again, I got excited. I'm sure my body released some kind of chemical -- endorphines, maybe? Or adrenaline? I don't know what, but something. I felt something in my stomach. It felt like emotion-- that's the only way I can describe it. It felt like I could cry, or needed to cry. It made me wonder if that's a feeling I've had before that caused me to think I was hungry when I wasn't. Maybe this feeling is what makes me and others "eat ourfeelings" and gain weight.
I am in control or my hunger, and I am in control of my weight now. With the SLD method, I believe I can succeed when I have failed before. My husband told me that part of what makes any diet plan work is psychological. If that's true, then I have an even better chance at success! I have never not wanted it, that hasn't changed. What has changed is that I never truly believed until now that weight-loss was possible. I believe now. I've seen it happening with my own eyes, and my graph.
Back on track graph:
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